Melt my heart with your little rebel smile...

I have a new LJ name. If you haven't been invited, sorry. Try to find me by my aim.

Happy Easter! I know this is a Sunday, and therefore a day of "resting"... but I couldn't help getting started on my dress. The first part is finished! ♥ I'll take pictures tomorrow!

EDIT: HERE IS DEM PICTURZ

Ok... Well, on

sew_loli, a comment on the same thread where i applied to be mod was a little bit... confusing?
It was a decent reply. The girl had a year experience as mod, so... that's awesome! ^^ But there was a comment to the effect of, " but most importantly, I have common sense"... I really don't know if she was just making a statement, or if she has something against me? Or if i'm misinterpreting it altogether... 
In any case, I might make a site elsewheres on teh internets, as my boyfriend and I are exchanging the gift of web domains for our anniversary. ^^ *hearts*
Well, I suppose that's all thats troubling me right now... ^^ That and a lot of homework... ^^;

 

I sorta applied to be a mod on sew_loli... I'm kind of happy about at least offering. I'd definitely love the job... but I'm not sure i'm qualified....

ok, now im completely irritated. it's not enough that this girl commented on his myspace...
I joined up on the board that he frequents at his request. She's there too! Its fine that she's there, really, I don't care, but when she makes comments to him that are slightly suggestive, considering the conversation, I can't help but get upset... And After dozens of introduce posts... (which btw, the form has no gender column) she posts after mine and says, "isnt it funny how these things never say gender?". Which insults me. Granted, it COULD just be an observation, but really, if you're going to be even slightly affectionate to my boyfriend and then question my gender when he says i belong to him, don't expect me to be nice.

AND HE'S MET HER IN REAL LIFE.           I know he wouldn't cheat, but I hate the idea. I HATE IT.
She's closer to him (both in PA), and probably knows more about him, given he's been on the board 2 years, and i've only been dating him 1 (but known him for 1 and 6 months, he will claim 3 years though, lol)

I FEEL SO THREATENED! This is my man, the one man out of billions that makes me happy and safe. Please not to be taking him. I know i'm jealous, but he's my lover, my light... my angel! Why to be so subtly catty? If he belongs to you then you better damn well tell me, because I'm not about to get cheated on again.

*sniffle*

Maybe I'm blowing it out of proportion... but meh. How do I know she doesn't like him?

AAARRRGHGHGH

I know i'm just being paranoid, but all the girls posting on my boyfriends myspace are hurting my heart! He replies playfully (but not flirty), and I know that's just his nature, but... It hurts.
Yeah, I'm sure this is stupid, some guys are actually out there cheating, and i know he's not. or at least hope.
I just don't want him gone. He's the best thing since... AIR.
I love him so much that tiny comments hurt me deep. And he might fall for someone with an IQ over 160, so... If those girls are any kind of smart, unlike me, he might enjoy them.

Come to think of it, I don't know why he's with me. I'm four hours away. Why keep me? What do I have that noone else can offer? I'm stupid and uncoordinated and horribly naive, short, not very attractive... What's to like?

*pouts* yay for self-esteem...

I can't believe it... Does anyone remember when Chips Ahoy were "a thousand chips delicious"? Well, now they're only 100 calories. Number crunching...

Yesterday, the wireless internet that I was pilfering died. Not just a loss of signal, but a termination of service. There are no other wireless connection points near me, and so I fear I shall only be able to access my account at school now. *sad*

It's ok, I suppose. I wanted cable internet anyway.

Wow, no. They just decided not to turn it on for a couple of days. ^^ *giggle*

So I had this fantastic dream last night...
My family went to TOKYO!!! *yes!*
But it was odd.... All of the sections of town were separated by large multicolored mosaic tunnels. (which were... like 2 people wide) And then I went to BABY.
BABY... i suppose at this point in my dream, we can safely say it is not based on fact... It seemed as if it was just getting off the ground. Like... one blouse, and a shoddy dress. I don't get it... Why would I dream something so nice as terrible?

Oh well...

I wanna plug here... My friend Cee makes his own music. I love most of it! He's got a unique dark/raver/metal thing going on...
So far, I particularly enjoy:

Black in Thought <3

Sober Pipe Dreams

Careless <3

Indefinite

Shirktype-To-A-Mouse <3

Midnight Melody <3

Safe Harbor

Angel Black

Crash Harbor (a mix of crash course and Safe Harbor at my suggestion! <3 you cee)

Misconception

http://www.putfile.com/supermechacow/ is where his stuff is located.

He's got an album coming out soon.
"Indefinity" I think... at
http://www.quantumtristarmedia.com/ they will have more information than I will.
Okay, they don't... but that's who's publishing him.
 BUT <3's to you, Cee!

I haven't included photographed instructions for the Obi because I was unclear as to how to make one. I can show you my attempt and how I accomplished it, but I will never claim it to be professional or correct.
A side note: I enjoy sewing and I have the ability to produce decent looking ensembles, but it doesn't make me a master seamstress. There are many other people with much more talent than I so please use this as a "beginner's tutorial". Thank you!

 I just got my "military" lolita dress done. It's really cute! I had some trouble lining up the ribbons on the dress, but... my breasts are crooked anyway. It was bound to look awkward. lol. Tonight is the Military Ball, so I'll definitely have some pictures. ^^ Well... I had to work really hard to get my shift changed at work to go to this thing, so it better be worth it. If it's not, then I got a dress out of it! ^^. I'm really pleased with it... can you tell? Well, I should eat. All I had today were some doritos, 3 pretzel sticks with cream cheese, and... that's it. no. I had macaroni & Cheese. But still. I think I shall make some Ramen. My next sewing project should be that Wa-loli Yukata that I need to make for Antique Child. Well... Goodnight (morning?)
<3

I posted on EGL about something, and ended up being a complete jerk to someone. My browser didn't display something correctly, and I ended up taking offense to something they said. I feel horrible. They forgave me though. I still feel terrible. I guess I should refresh a page a couple of time before I post, huh? GAWD. But I feel like such a jerk still. I hope they aren't too angry at me.

So far they say it takes more than that to upset them, etc. I don't know. I really hope that's true. ^^; Well, today's blah: I AM AN UBER BAKA.